Nyquil Induced Dad Dream

Yesterday I reading this post by a son who's father was also diagnosed with ALZ. He mentioned that the worst part about it was the fact that even though his Dad's was still alive, his memories with and about his Dad basically ended as soon as he was diagnosed with ALZ. That statement really hit home for me because the last memories I have of Dad are not when I saw him last Sunday, or when I will see him this upcoming Sunday, but of 2003 and older.

Anyway, I read this article as I took two cups of Nyquil and was about to go to sleep. (I am feeling under the weather even at this moment). Anyone who has ever taken medicine like Nyquil knows how weird your dreams can get and how you wake up remembering them with such great detail.

As you can guess, my dream was super bizarre. We were at Dad's funeral, open coffin, it was a viewing of him and it was in a lecture hall, full of people we didn't know but that he had touched. In the middle of a speech by some random, we (me and Anita) all of a sudden saw Dad get up from his coffin and just start walking out. I yelled "DAD!" Dad replied with "Hain, Beta. Let's go!" And we followed him just like that. Didn't even question his immortality. He strutted out of that lecture hall with his confident strut. We then took some back exits to the outside of the building, it was Mom, Dad, me and Anita. Dad looked at Mom and said "Are you Kunty?" to which Mom replied "Yes." And Dad said "Now I remember. I remember everything." We then walked outside and saw Sandhya, Pankaj, Jayant, Anju and Pinki playing in the snow. We joined in and it was like a Happy Ending to a movie. I woke up hearing the echos of his "Hain Beta." I can't remember the last time I heard him say that, but it was so loud and real in my dream.

I am not sure what that dream means, if anything...or maybe it just shows how weird I really am :) But I had this strong hope of Dad's immortality and maybe he would win the fight against Alzheimer's. I know that most likely he will not, but I woke up with a smile because even if it were just for those 2 minutes, I was with the Dad that I will always remember.

Strong, confident, immortal Dad.

The Chase

We each have a different relationship with Dad. Jay's with Dad is so hilarious. Jay will go into Dad's room bother him to the point where I randomly see him chasing Jay down the hallway. It's pretty hilarious and special at the same time.